Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Never Mind The Older Posts



So yeah, I guess I'm back. Even though it's me, the same person who's been using this blog since 2005, but I'll be different in a way! Never mind the older posts. 
I've changed a lot this year, mentally, and I realized the only way to be happy is not to give a fuck, it is easy and effective way to be happy, and live a headache free life.

Monday, September 5, 2011

See You Soon

So I guess this is goodbye, please don't cry, but I can't post anymore, actually I can post, but I'm done talking out loud to no one, I decided to compromise and get back to people I can actually talk to about the crap I post here, so I don't think this blog will be necessary for me in the current time, I'm taking a long break, and hope I'll be back someday, like next year same time maybe :D. See Ya.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Myriam Fares

Love the song

Enjoy It


I'm confused!



I was so bored today, so I decided to design/develop some iPhone App, and since I no longer chat, or at least I don't chat like I used to be, I want to create "Chatting App" Yes, it's hard, Yes, I have no background in this field, but who cares, I just wanna try new things, and this is my new thing for today.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Hahahaha



Sometimes the best the only solution you have is the worse solution. When you lie to yourself and everyone you talk to about how happy you are about everything is going on in your life, you start to believe your lies, and you enjoy everything around you, which is awesome, positive thinking is the best thing to do. But everyone now and then you remember the truth, you remember you are not living into that fantasy world you are building around yourself, and nothing is going on the way you want it go, you start to see things the way they are, when that happen, your world start to fade to black, everything gets dark, you just start falling into the same old hall that you struggled for months to escape from. When you hit the rock bottom of that hall, you try to do everything to get out, you just don't wanna stay in that dark place anymore, you start lying to yourself all over again, hoping that you are going to believe in your lies again, but SURPRISE!! Your lies are not working anymore! You spend your days working, try not to take a day off, so you would forget about that dark pit, but you find yourself surrounding more and more in dark, all you see is dark walls, all you hear is everything you want to forget. You remain like this for few couple of days, then out of no where, you start to see a light, not only one light, 2 lights, first one is bottled light, the second one is smoky foggy light. So as a human, you are greedy, so you decide to go out of the whole toward the 2 lights in the same time, you get bottled light drink it while inhaling all of the smoky light, after a while everything start to get brighter, everyone start getting more friendly, you enjoy your new feeling, so you take over them, you start to forget everything, even who you are, and where you are. You wake up after few hours and everything when back the way it used to be, no dark halls, you start believing your lies again, you start thinking being positive is the best thing ever. You enjoy your new fantasy life for couple of weeks, but as always in a short while you gonna fall in another dark hall, and you struggle so hard to escape it.


There's a shadow just behind me,
shrouding every step I take,
making every promise empty,
pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the pattern must we,
just because the son has come?

Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done? 
Jesus, wont you fucking whistle 
something but the past endured?

Why can't we not be sober?
I Just want to start this over.
And why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over.

I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
just enough to bring you down

Mother Mary won't you whisper 
something but the past is done.
Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but the past is done.

Why can't we not be sober?
I Just want to start this over.
Ah, why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over.

I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
Trust me, trust me, trust me, 
trust me, and trust me

Why can't we not be sober?
Just want to start this over.
Why can't we sleep forever?
Just want to start this over.

I want what I want, I want what 
I want, I want what I want, I want 
what I want

Monday, August 29, 2011

Can't Keep A Promise (AIRPLANE MODE)

       
            I promised myself not to get into troubles, I will do all I can to keep my mind clear, and leave childish things off my head, focus more on working and studying. For sure I can't keep having fun with friends away from work and study, so having fun was part of the deal. Anyway, all I wanted to stay away from is relationships, because as someone who sucks when it comes to relationships on so many levels, starting a new one is just a stupid move, I tend to get into relationship too fast, I don't know how to explain it, but I function well in a relationship for at least 1 year, then I start to get insane, or girls get insane, who knows, but things just don't work out. So why would I start a new thing and there's a 90% chance I will fuck it up?? I believe there's no point of doing that. I better worry about what the fuck am I going to do with my Cisco exam, and enjoy the premier league this year, because Manchester United kicking ass. I guess I will keep my promise at least till the end of the premier league, or maybe after getting my Cisco Certificate for Network Associate or whatever it's called. You think after moving to a whole new continent you will start to like girls from the country you moved to, but somehow you keep liking girls from your home. Another funny thing is I always like girls who say we don't like Iraqi guys, but as they say: "You are kinda different", The ugly truth is even that I always thought I'm different than the rest of Iraqi dudes, I'm nothing more than an Iraqi dude.


Big Sean:

I don't give a fuck about anything, that you're telling me
Cause right now it's all, irrelevant
I'm so high I won't, remember it
And I wish that this could last forever
But maybe one night is even better
Real nigga mayne
All the people plotted with
Is the same ones I'm dividin' the profits with
Now I'm in the building like two planes bitch
Kickin' it with my shirt off, on some Liu Kang shit
Sleep with the sun up like I grew fangs bitch
I come alive in the night, on some Bruce Wayne shit
Livin' my life, gettin' high payments
Fuckin' with some new broads and they high maintenance
And they wearin' high heels, trip so we're high heels
Tipsy and high, rollin' zips, gettin' high man errthang' high

High, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
It's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go
It's time to go, go

{Verse 2}

I don't give a fuck about anything, that you're telling me
Cause right now it's all, irrelevant
I'm so high I won't, remember it
Cause' the penthouse 90 floors up
Make love andthen join the mile high club
Yeah I'm on camera, fresh out of a sex scene
I just turn all my nightmares into wet dreams
I'm in a new crib, so big, I'm talkin' town size
Sippin' somethin' cold, smokin' weed by the pound size
Yeah I gotta big head ho, I think it's crown size
Bitch I do it big, and I never plan to down size
People who talk shit, is feelin' like dickheads
Saw me on the web like I had a extra six legs
Lookin' at my highlights
With a bitch with highlights
Crowd wavin' at me, all tryna' say hi right
Everything high

High, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
It's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go
It's time to go, go

{Wiz Khalifa}

If you roll one up, I'mma roll one too
Oh you sayin' you don't smoke ?
Well that's all that we do
You be up in the club
I be up in the clouds
Ohhh, don't gotta ask me if I burn enough cause' we don't run out
Blow it by the o, even my fans smoke it
Cause' they throw it at my shows
Hidin' it when I travel in case the police gotta know
Rollin' it up in traffic
Make you smoke out of a bong, put you on different hashes
My chick is the baddest, my spliff is the fattest
I'm livin' so lavish
Gotta patch a lil kid tryna' get at this cabbage
My pinky ring a V8, I filled it with carrots
I'm popeye with spinach, till' the day I die I'm gettin' high

High, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
It's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go
It's time to go, go

I don't give a fuck about anything, that you're telling me
Cause right now it's all, irrelevant
I'm so high I won't

{Chiddy Bang}

I'm fly, my . . . on priceline
Truthfully I want this shit to last a lifetime
Simply amazing, we blazin' while we just right rhymes
Cold flow, ice time, breakin' down bright pines
Enough with all the beefin' I'm over it
Outta town kush, but they smokin' that local shit
I always knew that I would be the man
They ride the greyhound, but I'm more a peter pan, we the fam
Off the scale, yeah we about to break the richter quick
Loud years, work a thousand words we should picture shit
When I come to smokin' we have a certificate
I know them haters is wishin' we fakin', licorice
Fuck it we up, my niggas strong, give me another l
I need a high class chich that I might travel well
She familiar with fendi, comfortable in the chanel
And you errthang' high when you livin' swell

High, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
Errthang' high, high, high, high, high, high
It's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go, it's time to go
It's time to go, go